5th week

I have to admit that after an awful 4th week, I finally had a great week.  It started with a workout with Javier.  Boy did he make me pay for not training with him the week before...but it felt painfully good.  I went to my doctor on Tuesday and he was very happy to see I had lost 20 pounds since I saw him last in August.  So when Wednesday came to work out with Mark, I was looking forward to see what his scale and measurements had to say.  I was thrilled to find out, I had lost 10 pounds since I started to work out.  I also lost an inch in all my measurements except my waist.  I know it is not much in a month.  But with all my ups and downs this month, I was super happy.  It gave brought back that confidence I so desperately needed this week.  It meant that I had lost a total of 33 pounds since I decided to do something about my weight back in the summer.  I know I need to track only since I started the gym...but I felt I had to share this information also.  On Wednesday, I thought I would work out by myself, but Mark had something else on the agenda.  I did my usual routine, then found Mark to get my measurements.  I thought I would just row for another 3-4 minutes, but Mark made me workout for another 20 minutes.  I actually worked for almost an hour for the first time.  I was struggling and came home dead tired, but felt very good.  On Friday, I actually exercised alone and felt good that I didn't decide to skip it.  I woke up with lots of energy today...could it be the confidence boost I received this week?

Thoughts...

I have mixed feelings.  I don't know how many people actually read this post, but I am getting discouraged.  Maybe it's because I am starting a diet of 700 - 800 calories.  Maybe it's because I haven't lost weight in 4 weeks.  Maybe it's because I am feeling so lonely.  (I have no family here, as they live 4 hours away)  Yes, I have friends, but family is family.  Maybe it's because I'm struggling financially.  Who knows?  Only God knows. But I cannot give up.  Again...I have survived another difficult week.  I've had lots of pain...lots of work (job)...stressful students this year...difficult co-workers (at times)...co-worker battling breast cancer...  Well I will start this week with training with Javier on Monday.  I go for blood work on Tuesday and hope to get good news about my diabetes, cholesterol and  blood pressure.  Then I hope to train on Wednesday with Mark.  Finally gym on Friday on my own.  I refuse to get discourage and I strongly believe obstacles make me stronger...but why so many?  I know I might not be going through anything compared to others, but I still go through them.  I hope my words can inspire someone out there to do the right thing about their health and weight problems.  Don't wait too long like me.  Til next time...

4th week

Sorry it took me so long to post...it has been a very difficult week.  I practically had to exercise alone with nobody to give me that boost I so much need.  I started tutoring and my trainers were not able to meet with me. On Monday, I got there at around 6 and I was able to work up a sweat...and I was in terrible pain on my knee.  I also started the HCG diet on my own.  On Wednesday, Mark forgot about me :( and again, I had to exercise on my own.  I did do my usual but I felt I didn't work up a sweat like I am used to.  On Friday, I did arrive at gym.  I did the bike, some arm machines...and honestly, I gave up.  I was in a lot of pain due to swelling and after 15 minutes, I left.  I guess what really upset me was that I went to weigh myself...and was very disappointed.  I feel I am exercising more every week, and though I have not gained, I am still at the same point I was 4 weeks ago.  I have to admit, I have lost inches, because I see it on my clothes, but it is VERY disappointed not to see that scale go down.  Maybe I need to exercise more than 30 minutes...but shh don't let Mark know this...

Thoughts...

There are many people who may read this and either not know me or don't know this side of me.  Some might know me very good and know how hard this journey is really for me.  However, I can't give up.  I am not getting any younger and my health is critical at this time.  Many people say I am fine, but in reality, I am really not.  With all the obstacles this week I am proud of not giving up.

It felt so good to begin wearing clothes, I haven't worn in years, that actually fit.  That I am able to breath comfortably wearing them...LOL!  I haven't not weigh myself and I am beginning to think I shouldn't for a while. I tend to loose inches more than pounds and I don't want to get discouraged.

I have a couple of new challenges this week.  My chiropractor noticed that my left shoulder seems a little higher than the right.  He said to continue exercising and it should leveled out.  But that is my weak side and hard to work harder with.  Another challenge is the constant pain I have on my left knee and leg altogether.  I am making an appointment with specialist and see what he can do.  I don't want to have to stop exercising like I had to three years ago.  I have arthritis on both my knees and have a knee caps smaller than I should for my bone structure.  Finally,  I start tutoring after school at my school and will not be able to attend gym at my regular time.  In order to continue with my training, I will need to choose either earning extra money or continue with my exercising routine?  I need to have someone training me at least two of three days and there are scheduling issues.  This will be something I will need to work on this week. 

3rd Week

This week started with many obstacles.  On Monday, I was not able to get to the gym until after 5:00 p.m. due to a school bus accident near the gym.  Police had all roads closed.  I didn't give up, and even though I had to exercise by myself, I still did a 30 minute workout.  Normally, I would have given up, turn around and go home. I am so proud of myself for not giving up.  On Wednesday, Mark was busy with new customers, but I did my own 30 minute workout.  As I was ready to wrap it up, Mark came out and said "Let's go".  I was so tired and in pain, but he had me do another 30 minute workout.  Though I complained, it went to death ears.  He even had me do two minutes on this machine that I thought I was going to pass out.  Again, I am glad he pushed me.  I have to admit, I slept very good that night.  However, I woke up with stiff neck and shoulder.  I went to my chiropractor and had a good hour body massage, focusing on those areas.  On Friday, I was again, all alone.  Nevertheless, I did my 30 minute routine workout.  I even did a minute on the "HATED" machine.  I need to get better at the names of the machines. :)

Thoughts...

It felt good to hear a couple of people ask me if I have lost weight this week.  I have not weigh myself in two weeks, but I guess two weeks at a gym is starting to show.  Every morning I wake up with very swore knees, due to arthritis.  However, I am not giving up.  I am tired of the pain and I must do something and I strongly believe I can do it.  Today, Saturday, I woke up like if I was going to work.  Instead of staying in bed, I decided to get up and go to Walmart.  Even though, I will sadly admit, I used the electrical car, I did get out of bed and spent over an hour just looking around.  This is something that I do not do early in the morning at all.  I guess exercising is giving me a little more energy than usual.  However, I did have a sugar low three times this week.  Not eating enough?  I want to believe that perhaps I need to cut down on my diabetic medicine.  Well I guess it is time to go to my doctor and see how well I am really doing.  Time will tell...

2nd week

Well this second week started with a new trainer on Monday, Javier.  He has different style, but not any easier.  He had me work doing steps with weights.  He worked a little more on my legs and thighs.  Wednesday, was back with Mark.  Mark really does work me.  It's hard, but I know it's for my good.  This week was tough because I woke up Thursday with pain on my neck.  Slept wrong?  Too much exercise?  Stress?  Well it got worse as the day went on and I ended up at the Chiropractor.  After an hour of deep muscle massage and neck cracked...I felt better but not completely well.  I was well enough to still go to gym on Friday afternoon.  This day was on my own and I was still able to work up a sweat on my own for 30 minutes.