I honestly thought this would have been a great week...boy was I wrong!!! I worked out with Javier like usual on Monday. He was tough with me, but I expected that. However, as a result, I hurt my heel with excessive launchers (which helps me strengthen my knees). So much that I ended in my Podiatrist Office on Tuesday. He did give me a shot, but warned me it was the last one. Next is surgery (something that I am avoiding). On Wednesday, I received a call to see if I can do my deep cleaning that day (RPC). I did and again, I was in pain but I knew I needed it. I did exercise that same day, even though Mark had an emergency and was not able to train me. On Thursday, I decided to participate the beginning yoga class at the gym. I had a total different thought of what it would be. But I did not give up. I stayed throughout the class but had to rest more frequently than others, and was not able to do a few things. I did learn that we should always roll to the right side whenever we get up from the ground or bed. Has something to do with preventing heart attacks or something like that. Overall, I felt good about doing it. I met a lady name Pam who was very encouraging and motivated me throughout. Again, on Friday I woke up very soar on my left knee and my left ankle. I guess i over did it with certain positions of yoga. So much it was very hard to get out of bed. I did not let the pain stop me and I went to the gym to weigh in and do some exercises on my own.
That's when my whole week went down the drain. I actually gained a POUND. I couldn't believe it!!! Another trainer, Will told me not to worry about it because it could be muscles building. But I did not care, if anything, I should of stayed the same, but not gain. I was so upset, but I went ahead and did the bicycle and some leg and arm exercises. But I only stayed for 20 minutes. I was just so upset. I thought about what I did wrong this week. Could it have been the 5 tamales I ate on Wednesday? The rice I ate on Thursday for dinner? But I am aloud to eat one meal of whatever I wanted. I guess in order to lose weight I need to stick to the two shakes for meals and a lite meal, i.e. salad. But I do get so hungry. I left the gym so upset, that I decided to go and really pig out. I went to Sonny's BBQ and had baby back ribs with lots of sauce, baked potato with lots of butter and sour cream, corn on the cob, and TWO garlic toasts. I said to myself, I am really going to give an excuse to gain now...but afterwards I felt so sick and guilty. I wanted to give up the whole thing. I posted on Facebook how I felt and I was very surprised on the response of support I received. I cannot give up. I have come a long way to give up and I have such a LONG way to go. I need to take it easy and stay focused. I guess I will have good weeks and not so good weeks. But giving up is for cowards and I am not such person. I have been through worse hurdles and have bounced back strong.
I am off this week for Thanksgiving and my goal is to go to gym in the morning and in the afternoon to work extra hard and see if I can lose at least 5 pounds. I will also get very strict in what I eat this week. My strongest goal is not to give up if I don't meet my goal on Friday and just continue to work at it. I know God is giving me the strength I need and is by my side every step of the way....
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